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I was listening to this song today and the lyrics really hit me!
I will lift my eyes from this fragile life
For you will rescue me, you are my prince of peace
And I lift up my soul to you who makes things whole
Oh, mercy love of old, in you I place my hope
I place my hope
We live a fragile life. We never know when our time has come to leave here and go home to the Lord
Life is so precious. Let’s live is well.
Last night I had a dream that I was giving birth. It seemed so real. I woke up and thought maybe it was true. It isn’t a physical birth of a baby but I think it is God birthing a new season in my life.
Everything has a season – summer, winter, autumn and spring. Imagine if we changed to having only one season per year. Some may enjoy having summer all year around for example but imagine what we miss out on – snow, rainy days, trees changing colour, certain fruit and vegetables no longer existing to name a few.
This is the scientific definition of why we have seasons: We have seasons because the earth is tilted (wonky) as it makes its yearly journey around the sun. The Earth’s axis is tilted at an angle of 23.5 degrees. This means that the Earth is always “pointing” to one side as it goes around the Sun.
Now, Gods definition of seasons is very different to this.
“To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:” Eccl 3:1
I heard a great sermon recently from Priscilla Shirer when she came to New Zealand for Sistas Conference. Priscilla said something that really clicked – “There are three main seasons of life. We are either going into a season, going through a season or coming out of a season in our life”. How true is that.
I am currently going through a season of struggle as I work through the grief of losing my best friend and mum. I feel as though God is taking me through this season to birth something new inside of me.
I cannot see what God is doing now but I know one day I will look back at this season and see what God birthed in me during this season. I am trying to take all the good from the season and that starts with an attitude of gratitude. I try to start my day with writing down in my journal things I am grateful for. Sometimes my lists are long and sometimes there short only consisting of selfish things like ‘I am grateful for a hot shower and coffee’ but other times I can’t stop writing. It also depends on how I slept the night before and my mood for the day.
PS – My best friend gave birth to her first child today – so exciting. Birth is taking place around me now it needs to take place in me.
Until next time…
Today is Thanksgiving in various countries around the world. We don’t celebrate it here in New Zealand but I do like to be more thankful on this day.
It’s been almost a month since I lost my mum to cancer, she slipped quietly away to go to heaven and be free from pain and suffering! I’m glad she’s no longer suffering but I miss her dearly. Especially around this time of year with Christmas coming up.
It’s funny I have this blog centered around gratitude and being thankful yet in my current circumstances its something I am really struggling with. The reason why I started this blog about 2 years ago was because I was sick and tired of the internet being filled with negative and ungrateful words so I wanted to add in some positiveness.
I really started this blog for others but right now it feels like I created this blog for me at the time as this. It’s funny how God works everything together for our good and its all in his perfect timing
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”– Psalm 27:14
There are so many stories throughout the bible about waiting on and being patient for God. People waiting for their prayers to be answered, people waiting to be healed and others waiting to meet Jesus face to face when he was here on Earth.
I am not that patient even though I like to think I am, so waiting on the Lord is not an easy thing for me. I continually pray for God to come and help me surrender this burden of grief that envelopes me. Even though there is abundance of spiritual food and water around me I am starting to feel dry and weak inside.
An attitude of gratitude is what will get me out of this head space right now.
I am grateful for all the amazing memories I have of my mum. We spent almost 29 years together and built such a strong relationship with her. She was more than my mum, she was my best friend. She knew me better than I know myself. Even at the age of 28 I still called her everyday to chat and tell her I love her and she would always respond with ‘I love you to dearly’ I am so grateful for that! I loved her hugs to they were always so war and made me feel safe.
I am grateful for hundreds of photos and millions of memories I have that I will never forget!
I am thankful for God and saving my Mum from her suffering here on earth.
“Give thanks to him, bless his name. For the Lord is good. – Psalm 100:4
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