Today is Thanksgiving in various countries around the world. We don’t celebrate it here in New Zealand but I do like to be more thankful on this day.
It’s been almost a month since I lost my mum to cancer, she slipped quietly away to go to heaven and be free from pain and suffering! I’m glad she’s no longer suffering but I miss her dearly. Especially around this time of year with Christmas coming up.
It’s funny I have this blog centered around gratitude and being thankful yet in my current circumstances its something I am really struggling with. The reason why I started this blog about 2 years ago was because I was sick and tired of the internet being filled with negative and ungrateful words so I wanted to add in some positiveness.
I really started this blog for others but right now it feels like I created this blog for me at the time as this. It’s funny how God works everything together for our good and its all in his perfect timing
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”– Psalm 27:14
There are so many stories throughout the bible about waiting on and being patient for God. People waiting for their prayers to be answered, people waiting to be healed and others waiting to meet Jesus face to face when he was here on Earth.
I am not that patient even though I like to think I am, so waiting on the Lord is not an easy thing for me. I continually pray for God to come and help me surrender this burden of grief that envelopes me. Even though there is abundance of spiritual food and water around me I am starting to feel dry and weak inside.
An attitude of gratitude is what will get me out of this head space right now.
I am grateful for all the amazing memories I have of my mum. We spent almost 29 years together and built such a strong relationship with her. She was more than my mum, she was my best friend. She knew me better than I know myself. Even at the age of 28 I still called her everyday to chat and tell her I love her and she would always respond with ‘I love you to dearly’ I am so grateful for that! I loved her hugs to they were always so war and made me feel safe.
I am grateful for hundreds of photos and millions of memories I have that I will never forget!
I am thankful for God and saving my Mum from her suffering here on earth.
“Give thanks to him, bless his name. For the Lord is good. – Psalm 100:4